Dating Philosophy #3

I have discovered that I cannot date people who remind me of
my "past" (you know what I mean?)

You know...as soon as similar mannerisms appear
That's the end...
somehow they seem less than attractive, and fall into the immediate category of "just friends"
Is that bad? pre-judging?
It's like I assimilate those mannerisms with lack of trust...
I can't do it.



Dating Philosophy #3.5:
It's possible I am too old to be in a BYU-Idaho singles ward
...I kind of miss the ward in Utah where there was a larger range in ages
maybe it's because I was younger then.

I am definitely feeling...
older.
Most people in these wards range from 19 - 23
(I know that's kind of a generalization)
I know there are guys my age here in Rexburg...
Good. Single. Available guys...

I was talking to a guy
...he looked about my age
he is actually 3 years younger than me...
When he found out my age he graciously moved on.

Now I am not saying that I don't find younger guys attractive
...it just makes me feel old especially with reactions like that.

back to the drawing board.

(haha. More to come.)

Note:
I chose to start writing these because I finally decided that it was simply time to put myself out there. This is the year. Time to adventure, and make friends. Time to date for real. I am tired of "hanging out." I am tired of feeling the way I do. I am tired of reflecting regrettably upon the decisions I have made to hold myself back in the past...so I am adventuring into the unknown world...gulp...of dating. I am simply going to do it. Most of these are in reply to the experiences that occur because of this outlandish decision. haha.